Not Good enough… Not Rich enough… Not Fit enough… Not Bad enough… But I’m glad i make you soooo fucken happy and that I’m there when you need me… Where the fuck are you when I need you!! Soon isnt fast enough!!

The hardest thing in life is watching someone you love run to someone else… She says I love you to me and my heart breaks when I see He makes her happy too… Why? I don’t know yet… I shake his hand with respect because I can see, without words, she loves him too… Again I accept… My heart dies as I realize I’m not the only one to be so lucky… If I keep losing pieces of my heart there will be nothing left but the bitterness and hate I refuse…

I cant stop thinking about it. The moment I walked in and saw that smile, I couldnt resist smiling back! She offered me cake, how could I say no? lol “Hi I’m Brian” I said. She told me hers, but I was so captivated by beauty I can’t even remember now. As she cleared and washed tables we talked. I remember the conversation, and something I said made her reply “You seem like a really genuine guy!”. She’s right ;)